”Not dark at all” This is my first impression about Finland. When I saw the view from plane, there were lots of beautiful environment includes forest and lakes. As I’d got any information about Finland before I came here, mostly those articles mentioned about its darkness. So I’ve been expecting Finland as a tough country to stay and I anticipated that sometimes I would get difficulty to talk with people. It’s also because of certain article which treats Finnish people as the shiest people in the world. (Though the 2nd is actually Japanese.)
The first person I talked with was actually the baby I met in the lift of Hotel Finn. He looked happy being with his mother until that moment he saw my face, he’d just started crying when I say ”Terve” , I guess he was trying to complain my pronunciation but I can feel myself as a foreiner here at that moment. Also, his mother kindly told me on which floor the Hotel is so I could efface my prejudice conversely.
Not to mention, since I came Kuopio, I’ve met many people and had any kinds of experiences, that sometimes was fabulous the other times, naturally, not that admirable. If I refer from good afair, I should mention my coworkers. The first time when I went to klassikka, it’s not easy to talk and introduce myself to everyone though I tried. Of course still I’ve been trying to find the way to understand each other even at this moment. But everytime I try, as I said about shyness of people from those 2 country, there are awkward moment emerged so often. Even we are able to read silence as a understandable word. Thanks to this aspect, I’ve just realized my lack of knowledge, or any kinds of experiences so that I’ve been trying to do everything I want, in order to know how to make my life enjoyable.
However, even though I didn’t try, somehow I got depressed sometimes in these 3months. I could feel my brain filled up with every ideas that I came up with, including both of real and unreal. I guess it can be also part of my experiences in Finland. It’s possible in the darkness to imagine either of the real and unreal because I can’t see anything. There has been everything I can imagine during those alone night. But obviously it can’t be real until I encounter. And, I didn’t lose any hope for real, to meet my friends or to teach my culture for my students, so I can fall asleep easily with looking forward to those things happening to me. I just mean to find the solution against this trouble of darkness, it’s just there, like all of my friends are always around me. Because of the darkness, relatively it’s quite easy to find those light, certain kind of light, they raise me up.
Now I’m still smiling every single day, enjoying my Japanese class with curious students and the foods such as kalakukko, karjalanpiirakka, piparkakku. Totta kai I love sauna!!!!
And, after all my 6months-staying, I swear I’m going to say, ”Not dark at all ”.
Hiroshi Hayasaka
Non SolumJoulukuu 2014 - International Christmas22.12.2014